October 6, 2008 at 10:48 am 2 comments

there is really so much on my mind these days, and with being on bedrest of course i have all the time in the world to think. first, i’ll update on friday’s dr appt. BP is stable since i started taking the methyl.dopa. i’m still on a low dose and checking it regularly at home i am not concerned about it – its running 130/75 while on bedrest. my urine labs are coming back under the diagnostic level for preeclampsia so at this point its just PIH. I am relieved about that. But of course it can change at any moment so i’m on hyper alert for symptoms – headache, blurred visions, URQ pain, face swelling, baby kicks regularly. this is making me a bit crazy, when the baby sleeps i am sure he’s gone so i poke and prod until the poor guy wakes up and then i feel stupid and neurotic, and i go through this several times a day.  hospital monitoring again on tuesday.  i’m looking forward to it. each visit is another milestone reached.

my poor husband. he’s holding up the fort but i can tell he’s stressed and tired. he’s doing all the grocery shopping, meal making, house cleaning, laundry, taking Sweetlove back and forth to preschool and his grandparents’, taking care of me, and working a full time job. he doesn’t stop from the minute he wakes up until usually ten o’clock at night. i feel so badly, so much on his shoulders while i lay up here whining about my aches and pains. i’m so moody – crying one minute, laughing the next.  mostly feeling completely out of control of my emotions. and disconnected from Sweetlove. we are keeping him busy as we can during this but i can tell he doesn’t quite understand why mama can’t play. 

i’m happy it looks like we’ll make it to 36 weeks — 37 would be even better – but any further than that will make me feel like i’m playing with fire. especially if my BP continues to rise. the last thing i want is to wait until severe PE hits and end up on mag and more post partum issues. i was so sick last time when i was induced that it very much affected my recovery and first months as a mother and replaying that is such a fear of mine. i guess time will tell!


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quick update hospital day

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  • 1. Sugar and Ice  |  October 6, 2008 at 5:40 pm

    Congrats on making it to 36 weeks! I hope you’re able to either get that baby out of there by 37 or if your body decides to keep it in I hope your body cooperates and you get that safe and healthy deliver you’re hoping for.

  • 2. Sue  |  October 6, 2008 at 6:04 pm

    You will make that 36 week mark, I just know it! You are going through a tough time now, but it will all be worth it when you get to hold your new sweet little baby.

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