summer dreams, nightmares

July 2, 2008 at 8:59 am 3 comments

We spent the last five days at the cabin with my parents, my brother, SIL and nephew, many aunts, uncles, cousins… it was hot, sunny heaven.  We played on the beach, sunbathed in the lake, barbecued steak, played water squirters, bathed the babies in the warm water, took Sweetlove tubing behind the boat, lit off our annual Cana.da Day fireworks show on the dock for the rest of the lake to enjoy… it was all around perfect.  My cousin even got engaged on the lake on Sunday, and came back off the dock with a shiny diamond ring on her finger.  It was a really fun time and the kids especially just love to soak it all up. 

However.  There was this “elepant” in the room right?  This giant ugly elephant that we all tried desperately to ignore in hopes of “living in the moment” and allowing my mom to just be.  To enjoy her family, her grandkids, her summer home with all the relatives.  I had this lump in my throat the whole time, and I’d look at her and know she was in pain.  Know she was on the verge of tears.  Know she was hurting so bad inside wondering why her, what is in store, what is coming for her future.  Will there be another Can.ada Day weekend for her?  Ugh, it’s just all so awful.  Then yesterday morning we woke up and my parents were gone.  They called mid-morning to tell us they were at the hospital an hour away, my mom had some really bad pain in the middle of the night and nothing was helping so off they went to ER.  She came back sore, tired, overwhelmed.  Wanting to be a part of everything but just not able to both physically and emotionally.  Nothing was the same this weekend.  How can it be?  Our whole family is waiting on baited breath to find out how bad this might be and wondering when we can possibly exhale.  We are hoping she will have surgery within the next week.  Praying it happens sooner than later and that we find out she’s going to be able to fight this.  Nothing else seems important right now.


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lots more trucks in our future in the arms of the angels

3 Comments Add your own

  • 1. canape  |  July 3, 2008 at 12:38 am

    Praying right along with you.

  • 2. Alisha  |  July 3, 2008 at 8:29 am

    I really feel for your mother. I’m praying as well…

  • 3. Jackie  |  July 3, 2008 at 7:04 pm

    Add me to the prayer list. Hang in there, Jen.

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