No Title, Just a Post about Crappy Feelings

December 21, 2006 at 7:41 pm 2 comments

Now don’t get me wrong. I love husband’s cousin and his girlfriend. I really think they are a great couple (who ought to get married may I say). But hearing yesterday they are “expecting” ruined my whole freaking day. I am now undeniably one of them, the women who can’t handle hearing about family or friend’s pregnancies without wanting to scream and throw a hissy fit and then break down in tears because life feels SO UNFAIR. Then I feel bad because I’ve got L. and who am I to feel like this with a son who makes my days full of joy? I just want so badly to have another baby and it feels like everyone around me is pregnant or has a newborn and my son will be four by the time his brother or sister comes along – and that’s only if we get pregnant within a few months. I’ve never wanted anything so badly in my whole life and when other people announce they have what I so desperately want, the news devastates me. So husband called me yesterday at the office as I’m on the way out to lunch, I pick up the phone in the mail room to answer the page and he says, Great news, hun. Brad and Lisa are pregnant. Isn’t that cool? Uh. Yeah. That’s Great. ——— Big Silence ——– BREAKS OUT IN TEARS and CAN HARDLY SPEAK. Standing in my office mail room bubbling like an idiot. This is so not like me at all. OK, well I’m pretty sure the clomid is partially responsible for my uncontrollable emotions, but it freakin sucks to have other people’s good news make me feel like shit.

Advertisements

Entry filed under: Uncategorized.

Eggie, Eggie, Eggie??? A Wonderful Christmas…

2 Comments Add your own

  • 1. Shannon  |  December 28, 2006 at 11:58 pm

    I know just how you feel. I too am beginning to be “that person” who can’t stand to hear other’s good news. I want to scream, Is it EVER going to be me again?! Just so you know you’re not alone.

    I saw your link from the preeclampsia.org forums and this was my first visit. I have to tell you that I really enjoyed it. Thanks, from a really bad blogger who has no time to blog and even when she does, she uses it doing something else!

  • 2. name  |  July 29, 2009 at 11:49 am

    Real,

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

Trackback this post  |  Subscribe to the comments via RSS Feed


Blog Stats

  • 18,448 hits

%d bloggers like this: